cat-like typing detected

I'm not allowed to say this because i'm not your friend, but i'm your fucking friend, i like having you around, i like the things you talk about, i understand.


SORRY IM A BIG FAT DUMB IRRESPONSIBLE IDIOT.


Anyway, dear livejournal that no one on my friends list updates anymore,
i've returned from my travels and will remain stationary for the winter. I've made a lot of art, and i've been writing a whole bunch and i learned a song on ukulele, and i helped tear apart a schoolbus to turn it into essentially a house, and i fed 150 homeless people, and i got arrested for sleeping on top of a roof and spent five days in jail, and i dropped acid by the creek all day and all night and saw gates everywhere and knew what they meant, and i slept under a bridge and it was more comfortable than a bed when i was with pleasant company, and i played cowbell for a band, and i had sex in some rich suburbanite's driveway, and i stole sal's shirt, and i cuddled in the basement til i fell asleep, and i saw a mountain lion up close, and i danced my butt off nearly every night, and i remembered what it was like to love everyone in the world, and i flew signs, and i broke a bed, and i walked all day and all night on bruised and infected feet, and i did all these wonderful, novel things that nobody but me is interested in.

And now i'm home and i want to sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep.

still alive. in florida right now.

im still alive.

My stomach is in knots tonight. Tomorrow I'll be hitchhiking to boulder, and from there, heading west. My backpack is light, but my heart is heavy. I feel very stupid, but oh so free. And that's all that matters. If I die on the road, I want you to know I love you.

I'm nervous but not afraid.

So good I had to share

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okbDmEGrCZ8

shitty video, amazing song.

I'm thinking of paying off my credit cards that i got in gainesville. They're really not that much money, and if i just paid a little bit every month, i'd be able to get another one for emergencies...

I certainly wish I was a responsible person, and I'm hoping to mold myself into one, but things like bills and rent just never made much sense to me. I just get so caught up in my passions for men and women and real life that I forget the day rent is due, and i blow off work and I never pay off my credit cards.

But I'm 22 now, and I'm bored with living with the 'rents, and I'm bored with fanciful ideas about sneaking through windows and, and I'm bored with mediocre sex with people I barely know who turn out to be self involved idiots that can't even hold a conversation unless it's about themselves.

I have a dream now, a goal in my mind that I am willing to work HARD for if I have to.

God, I have so much I want to talk about tonight, but no one's in the mood, it seems.

I'm coming back to florida in a few weeks, for a vacation, and I am so excited to see what happens. So much has changed, I wonder if my friends will even recognize me. I wonder if i'll recognize them!

I was thinking of going back to Gainesville for the summer. I emailed the guy from copytalk asking for my job back, and he's willing to give me another chance. It would be nice to spend the summer in a place close to home but not close enough to make me miserable. Especially since a lot of my friends have moved from sarasota to gainesville recently, and the ones that haven't visit there a lot. I found some summer sublets for pretty cheap in good locations. I think it would be fun, but I still have a lot of thinking to do about it.

A great big HUZZAH! I am a mac person now! My new macbook arrived today, and that is what I am typing to you from. I want to video chat with people, since I can and I have a bitchin' webcam built right in to the computer.

iChat is so wonderful. I love it way way more than regular aim, or Trillion.

Here I am trying to be a professional writer, and what happens? I spell "curiosities" wrong in my blog url. Silly me. Here's the new link:

http://tinycuriosities.blogspot.com/

it had to be tiny, because little was already taken :(

In other news, I ordered my brand spankin' new Macbook today, with a cute little pink case for it. I hope that iWork is a good program, because it was WAY cheaper than Microsoft Office for Mac yet still compatible with Office files, so it seemed like the better deal. I know a lot of writers that use it. The only thing that sucks is it lacks the track changes tool, but that's not so horrible. I can track my own changes.

So in 3 days, I will be virus free forever! Huzzah!

http://littlecuriousities.blogspot.com/

for my writing and, for my art there is this really dumb one:

http://peeandtea.blogspot.com/

Updating at least weekly, and when my life straightens out, I will have a definite schedule (hoping for twice a week).

Also, I joined a writers workshop that meets every week and I love it more than anything in this whole wide world. I am really starting to like Colorado Springs.

Also Also, I am redecorating my bedroom. I took apart my ugly, splintery bunk bed today with a screwdriver and my awesome man power.

I want to eat all the snow that is falling.

This seems like an appropriate place to vent this...


I'm pretty sure I dislike every single person ever.

These are my top six:

1. Sarah Palin
2. Sarah Palin's daughter
3. My brother
4. everyone who comments at reddit, then goes other places on internet to brag that reddit is better
5. People that talk about going "green"
6. Pat from Achewood

It just feels like every person that is alive is also annoying. I have felt like this ever since I stopped smoking weed.

I think I like Dune more than Star Wars. I like Lord of the Rings more than any of them.


As a side note, do you guys think its possible that dark matter is composed of clusters of tetraneutrons? The unexplained-of-yet mass seems to make sense. I would like to know if and why this is impossible.

quote of the day:
"Cracked pepper is not all it's cracked up to be."
-My Mom